Drawing is the easy part.

I was looking at my facebook and remembered I linked my old blog into it. While removing the posts there I came across this one. Since it is still basically true and I felt like archiving it here too... so behold! A post from the past:

(edited slightly to not appear insane, and updated a part)

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I have lots of comic ideas. In the past year I have basically buried 3 of them because I’m overthinking.

I like doing comics because I think it’s a very fun way of story-telling. It’s both visual, and in text. I enjoy literature, but don’t have the attention span for it. With comics you get the enjoyment of great writings (in smaller, easier to consume packages) and great art. Unlike movies, the whole thing still works with the readers imagination on some level. Comics can have some very unique moments.

The No Point comic. It was literally started after reading real-life comics, after the “I wanna do a webcomic” -feeling. And pretty soon after I realized there was no real hope for the thing. Instead of trying to make it a comic that… was actually good, I used it to experiment with alot of things, to learn the secrets of comics. A “hell, I started it already, might aswell do somethign with it” -thing. I never had much readers when I was doing it, so I was just doing it to learn what the hell I was doing. Looking back, it is the reason why blastwave was decent in the beginning. Though blastwave became just another experiment for me. I mean hell, it STARTED OFF as a test on how I would do a fully painted comic page. Later on when it got readers it became a social experiment. Now it’s more of a useless project that holds little-to-no interest for me. The thing has been mostly repeating itself since the early days.

added: I don't want to "end" the comic. I don't want to completely close out the possibility of more pages. It is very unlikely at this point, but who knows about the future. Also nowadays I have started thinking of transforming it into an animation project.

Where was I going with this?

Oh yeah.

I wanna move on to the other types of comics now.

I really wanna do comics that have continuous stories in them. But at the same time, I want the stories to have some big meaning in them. A point. Along with lots of stuff I’ve always wanted to see. And more. I want them to make sense. I want them to not be the mass-produced crap we see so much today. I want them to be the best thing ever. I want them to be the single best use for my time. Perfect.

Of course that is an impossible goal. What I want changes by the minute. This causes me to try to include every single idea I ever get into one big pile of stuff. Eventually this pile becomes un-manageable and collapses in on itself. Leading to more projects I put “on hold” and have to rethink.

I am currently in the process of trying to figure out how to get over this. How to settle for less. Or maybe just do something someone else wrote without being overly critical of it (note: TGSA). My standards are too high for me to do anything.

It’s pissing me off.